although i don’t want to actually admit it, i’m really homesick. i love college but it’s getting so complicated now. i feel like my life has started to become an embarrassing shitshow. which, i mean, i AM in college so it’s totally understandable. but like, yesterday, i kissed 11 people. 11 drunken kisses which could have completely been avoided.

i. am. so. trashy.

i need to go home and calm down for a bit. i’m talking to an adorable guy from jersey who i’m starting to really like. he goes to my school & lives like 20 minutes from me, so distance wouldn’t be a problem. i’m just about ready to actually have a real relationship with him and start working at some menial job somewhere rather than living in a dorm with a roommate who judges my every move and a shit ton of school work to do, which is what i’ve been doing for the past 8 - 9ish months.

i’m ready for a break.

i know i’ll miss school so much once i go home but i think i’m ready for that. i’m ready to calm down & spend more time with my family and the friends i never see.